Over the past month, since sharing my weight loss & fitness story with everyone I’ve realized something. I was completely blown away to realize it and I’ve spent the last week or so trying to think about what I can do to fix it.
I need to apologize: to my family, my friends and to a lot of you. I was being completely selfish and I am truly sorry.
As I have talked to a great many of you (THANK YOU for all the support!), heard your own stories, goals, struggles and plans, I’ve discovered something. Keeping my journey, the things that changed my life, the way I manage my days, the health & fitness world that I adore a secret was completely, 100% selfish on my part.
I didn’t want to be annoying. I didn’t want to be that person who overshares and everyone is like “SHUT UP”. I didn’t want to sound like a “know it all” or make someone else feel less than because they weren’t working out, or eating clean too. I was (and let’s be honest, I still am) terrified of pushing away people I love, people I respect, people I’ve yet to know by putting the real me out there.
Instead, I’d mention it from time to time but otherwise I kept it close lipped. Truly believing I was making a good choice, the best choice for everyone.
Man, was I wrong!!!!!
There have been so many people, 4 very special ones in particular who have said to me, “Man, we all were watching what was happening. We saw you changing, we wish we had known SOONER what you were doing so we could do it too”
The first time I heard that my stomach dropped to the floor. Had I really been that evasive and secretive about how I was taking care of myself, and what I was doing to change my body?
Ya. I was.
Many people assumed I’d lost the weight because of my corn allergy. Which definitely plays a part in the foods I choose to put into my body, but let’s be clear. There are plenty of things I could bake and eat, chocolate bars that are “safe” for me and excuses I could make to not workout that have nothing to do with my allergy.
Others, who didn’t know me when I was younger. Those who weren’t around for my heavier days, assumed I’d always been fit like I am and when I’d mention that I hadn’t been, they’d scoff. More than once, when I would offer empathy to a friend struggling to lose weight, I’d hear “Ya. as if you know what it’s like. I can’t imagine you like that, it was probably never that hard for you” It would sting, but I’d move on.
The thing is, it WAS that hard. I lost 78lbs through a lot of hard work, careful choices and sweat. Seriously you guys, a lot, A LOT of sweat!
What I thought was being private was actually me selfishly hiding what I was doing, so that I wouldn’t be judged.
Never in a million years did I think that instead of facing judgement, I’d have been given support, shown grace and most importantly had the opportunity to help other people find their way to a healthier body too!!
If you were someone who wished I’d have shared sooner, I’m sorry I didn’t ever mean to hurt you. Being secretive ends today.
So what does that mean?
It means from today forward I’m going to be sharing what I’m doing. The workouts I’m loving, the ones that are kicking my butt, the meals I’m eating, my struggles, my successes, my discoveries and most of all, I’m going to be inviting you to join me.
The thing about being successful at things, really truly successful in life is that it really doesn’t mean a whole lot if you don’t share it with someone. I’m learning that and I want to change it.
I’ll be sharing here what’s happening in our lives, because I’m not the only Stone making life changes. Corey has joined the workout train and is killing his program right now. And my girls, are my forever cheerleaders, Audrey is a “JR. Coach in training” and Bethany is excitedly getting ready to launch their “Fit Kids Challenge Group” at the end of the month (stay tuned for more info!).
It won’t all be health & fitness, but a lot of it will be. You can still count on me for recipes, for rants (because I HAVE to let the words out), reviews and for updates on how we are, on Audrey’s health journey (side note: We have appointments at cardiology, hematology & rheumatology all within 3 weeks at Children’s in June. We’d love the prayers and hopefully will have answers by the end of them). I just also want you to know that you can also count on me for support, for encouragement and for authenticity.
So, here it is. Me taking a REALLY big leap, putting myself out there, and extending to you the first real invitation from my heart and our lives to YOU.
If you’re interested in learning more about how I’ve managed to lose the weight and get fit. Or if you need someone to just support you on your own journey to health & fitness PLEASE LET ME KNOW! There is little else that would make me happier than being able to come along side of you and see you succeed!
Leave a comment here, or on Facebook or send an email to email@example.com and I would sincerely love to be able to hear your story too!