Finding Grace in Small Things…

by Ashley on May 7, 2012

in Grace in Small Things

Emotionally, today kicked me in the head.  We had more tests with Audrey (we had some on Friday) and there are more appointments/trips to Children’s planned for this month.  Today didn’t go well, not like it usually does and it was hard.

Since it would be really easy for me to vent and rant and list off all the “hards” in today, I’m not going to.  Instead I’m going to find the Grace, the good, the not bad because I’m afraid that if I don’t purposely find the good, I’m not going to want to get up and face tomorrow.

Finding Grace in Small Things…

6. Sunshine: It fixes things.  That’s all.

5. Bethany’s Smile: That little girl can smile and stop me in my tracks.  Even when it’s been a long day, when I’m tired, when I’m done – that little girl can bust out a grin and my heart lightens.

4. No News: When it comes to the tests we’re having right now, “No News is Good News”. Nobody stopped me and said, “No, Audrey’s Mom (because there I don’t have a name) you can’t leave with her”.  Nobody called and said get here fast, and for that I’m very thankful.

3. My Mom: She’s been a rock, a rockstar and a support that I’m exponentially thankful for.  Without her I’d have had to drive in Vancouver (this requires I bring 2 papers bags, one for barf the other for breathing) and I’d have to face these hard days, while Corey is at work, alone.

2. Shadowfeet: Yet another song, carrying me through.  Shadowfeet by Brooke Fraser go listen.

1. God is Bigger: No matter how bad my day is, no matter how big your problem is, no matter how “small” a situation makes you feel – God is simply bigger.  He’s bigger than what’s happening with Audrey, He’s bigger than the fear Satan tries to fill my mind with, He’s bigger than Bethany’s bad dreams and He’s bigger than the mountains that loom out my windows.  And when I think about how Big He really is, how small I really am and how much He loves even me – everything feels like it’s going to be ok.

Today was hard, but because of how big my God is, how beautiful the sunshine will be and how precious my baby girls are, tomorrow will be better.  It just simply has to be.

Grammy May 7, 2012 at 7:53 pm

Ashley… please watch the videos we gave you. It helps in visualizing a weeee bit of God’s amazing size and power. It is awesome!
I love you… you are a good Mom… be strong in God. He shows HIS strength through our times of weakness. Curl up in His arms and unload and ultimately rest. He loves you… Audrey… Bethany and Corey. He knew that these days would be here the day he formed Audrey in your womb and He trusted YOU to be there for her… He trusted YOU to be the Mom that’s heart would ache for an answer… He trusted YOU to be the one to direct her heart and Bethany’s heart to Him. He loved you enough to give you these two little “flowers” to water, prune and nurture… I sure know why… you are a wonderful Mom.
Love always
Your Mom… aka Grammy

Kami May 8, 2012 at 8:02 am

Hugs Ashley! And continued prayers for answers. Good answers.

xoxoxxox
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Ashley May 9, 2012 at 7:01 pm

Thanks so much Kami, we’re praying for those answers too.

Angella May 8, 2012 at 8:55 am

Big hugs and prayers, Ashley. xoxo
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Ashley May 9, 2012 at 7:01 pm

Thank you so much Angella!

Annie @ It's just my life... May 9, 2012 at 12:35 pm

finding grace in the small things helps when you are dealing with a lot.
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Ashley May 9, 2012 at 7:00 pm

It totally does!

gingermommy May 9, 2012 at 3:03 pm

What a great post. Hopefully you get the answers you are looking for.
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Ashley May 9, 2012 at 6:55 pm

Thanks, we’re trying. It’s been over a year of searching but maybe soon.

Orangeheromama May 9, 2012 at 3:49 pm

Prayers, Hugs and Strength to you!!

(and i also LOVE LOVE Brooke Fraser!!)
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Ashley May 9, 2012 at 6:55 pm

Thank you so much, they are appreciated! And yes Brook Fraser is fabulous – God is using her in a big way.

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