I used to want to be naturally thin

by Ashley on August 19, 2012

in Fitness & Exercise

I used to say, “I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and never get fat”, I used agree with my friends when they’d say “Wouldn’t it be nice to be naturally thin?” and I used to look at women with the body shape I desired and think “They’re so lucky, it’s so easy to be them”

Not any more.

Somewhere along the line I made a few discoveries.

“I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and never get fat”

If I could really eat whatever I wanted and not get fat, would I still make healthy choices?  Would I still choose a grilled chicken breast, brown rice and steamed veggies or would I choose Salt & Vinegar chips and Areo Chocolate bars?  I don’t really know, we’d all like to say that we would make the wise choice but would we really?

What if I didn’t make the wise choices what would my heart look like?  What about my liver or my kidneys, would they still be healthy?  If I ate whatever I wanted and didn’t think about fat content, preservatives, chemicals and calories – would I even live to see my grandchildren graduate preschool?

I’m not willing to take a chance fat or not, that my life, the lives of my children and the future of my family will be compromised or shortened all because of a daily regime of grease burgers and garbage filled potato chips.

I’m proud of the choices I make, I love how my body feels when I eat clean food and I truthfully enjoy each and every healthful bite.

“Wouldn’t it be nice to be naturally thin”

This one isn’t really any different for me than the last.  If I were naturally thin would I get up every morning and jump, jog and throw around weights until I’m drenched in sweat?  Would I know how many full push-ups I can do in a row or hold an arm bar plank for 2 minutes?

No.  I wouldn’t.  Of that I’m sure.  Not because I don’t love it, now that I’ve begun I am addicted to my fitness to my daily burn, it makes me happy.  But if I didn’t NEED to do it to really kick off my weight loss journey I may never have begun and I never would have found out how great it really is.

“They’re so lucky!  It’s so easy to be them”

Standing where I stand today, closer to my goal than I was 2 years ago (yet still so far away) I can say with certainty you can’t tell how hard a person does or doesn’t work by just looking at their clothed bodies.

I work hard for what I do have, every single day and I deserve it.   I don’t pretend (or think) that I’m perfect, and I don’t think anybody wants what I have but there have been moments when comments have been made that imply that the way I am now is easy.  These have been made by people who either didn’t know me before or ones closer who assume that my restricted diet with my corn allergy has everything to do with the body I work on.

Let me tell you this.  I’ve spent 2 full years working very hard everyday to make this body healthier.  A corn product doesn’t do my bicep curls and it sure as heck isn’t a salad boxing its way to a puddle of sweat.

Will I ever have the “perfect” body I desire?  Probably not.  Will I always have insecurities?  You can pretty much bank on it.  But I no longer look at my eating and exercise as means to an end.  Rather I see them as part of my journey to prevent an early end.  I feel better when I fuel my body with good foods, I have less stress and more energy when I get my workouts in and I LOVE with a passion seeing my family join me on this journey.

I don’t know how you look at others.  How you see yourself or what your goals are in life.  But maybe instead of looking so much to others either in envy or in judgement take a look at yourself and see your own power.  Decide to make today (not tomorrow) the first day of change and discover that you’re stronger, healthier and more capable than you ever dreamed you could be!

And remember – Eat it Clean, Get it Moving, Live it Healthy.